girlfriends

holla peeps. baru perasan previous entry it's all about syafiq,syafiq,syafiq...biasalah..orang ngah angau..hee..

okay,first of all..nak cerita pasal my girlfriends..



Fiqa . banyak tolong Kelly time Kelly susah.selalu dengar masalah kelly,tolong selesaikan.. babe,I love you like a lot!you are so sweet,like gula gula. hee. Fiqa selalu buat Kelly ketawa,menceriakan hari hari Kelly. really,because of her,my days during classes were so happy. since sem 1,this lovely girl yang selalu teman kelly,buat kelly tersenyum and always there for me. kelly very appreciate you dear. even kita tak tinggal serumah dah sekarang,you just don't know how I missed our moment together. kalau kelly ada sakitkan hati Fiqa,terguna duit Fiqa,terkecikkan hati,terguriskan hati,terkutuk lebih-lebih,I'm so sorry..I' not perfect. kelly sayang Fiqa sangat sangat..and kelly akan elak seelak elaknya perselisihan faham antara kita. this I promise you.
cik sailormoon yang molek ni,my favourite girlwe're under the same zodiac, PISCES. so most of our perangai quite the same la.obses dgn kucen. tapi manyak jugak tak same,such as Fatin ni ade amek Aquarius pnye sikit-sikit. hakhak. such as pembersih gila,perfectionist,and beberapa perkara lagi lah. one thing yang paling buat kelly happy was she's ready to give her commitment. and to see her happy with her current life. of course with hiro rakki. Hiro rakki,you were the lucky one!! babe,I wanna say sorry if I can't be a perfect friend for you,but trust me,I have gave my best to be a good friend for you. and I always will.

about Kelly :)

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

the effort you make will pay off kelly! InsyaAllah^_^

ok i'll stop grumble about how busy this semester was. for this first and half weeks ni aku memang semangat gile lah kan,bangun pagi pun senyum je,rasa tak sabar-sabar nak pergi kelas segala,harap-harap semangat ni kekal sampai aku graduate nanti la..amin..
subjects for this semester yang aku ambil,

Ordinary Differential Equations
Calculus III
Linear Algebra II
Probability and Statistics
Econometrics
Principle and Practice of Management
Arabic Language II
Public Speaking (Bahasa Melayu) I

banyak tak?banyak tak?? =_= tape tape,I'lll try my best untuk terus tingkatkan pointer aku. there comes a time where I have to stop beating myself up over the mistake I've made. i will never ever repeat them in future

by the wayyy,hari-hari saya diwarnai dengan gelak ketawa bersama my buchuk2,korang memang best!

Syafiqah Tajul Mulok [kak Jemah ku sygs : p]

Nurfatin Sailormoon

Siti Hawanazira

Shazzy Wanie

14years and still counting baby

Mazril Emyliya Misbae

I love you dearly. I miss you when we go a day without texting or talking to one another. I love when you understand me. It’s so nice being able to communicate with you in a way that only us two can comprehend.

Thank you for being honest, caring, and having such a beautiful personality. I hate when we fight. I hate when we have a day where we barely talk. I love being drawn to you. Your friendship means the world to me. Thank you for always being there when no one else was. Thank you for lifting me up everytime I fell. Thank you for always putting a smile on my face. Thank you for being.. you.

I’m forever grateful for finding a friend in you. I will always be appreciative by you just……existing. You are all beautiful.

semester 3 yeah

wah..new semester bebeyh : D sem ni sanagt happy sebab tade repeat,but yet kena struggle gile sebab 23credit hour. uhh,berat gilerr : ( but you know what,i will try my best untuk terus tingkatkan pointer aku. maths ke tak maths ke,i know I can do it. : ) when you cannot change the situation you are challenge to change yourself. lantak lah dulu aku cakap aku anti maths segala,Allah knows the best for me,ini yang Dia tentukan so aku akan follow the flow : )

by the way,pindah rumah baru. bilik kecil but selesa,that's what i want : ) plus kedai pun semua dekat,so paham-paham je la aku kan tade transport so benda-benda camni bagi advantage la kat aku. tape Kelly,belajar bersusah-susah dulu. kalau ade kereta or motor pun bukan kau pandai and berani bawak =.=

lagi ape ek,oh ya,semester ni aku nak jadi baik. tamo gaduh-gaduh,turunkan ego sikit,and be a better person : ) lagipun tak syiok la asyik gaduh-gaduh je,bukan zaman budak-budak kan. kenalah matang : )

dah lah tu je,aku tulis ni pun sebab nak tunggu Fatin habis kelas. pasni nak tidur : D hee..

nothing lasts forever :)

it's been more than a year since i left KMJ.

last night,suddenly out of nowhere memori kat KMJ muncul kembali. the moment where my class started on 9am,me and Tasha walked to Kafe B where Judin,Jiebub,Razman and Aizat waited. we're having our breakfast there. waktu tu before class tutorial maths. on that morning jugak biasanya aku mengopy tutorial maths and biology dak2 ni. muka aku memang muka tak siap tutorial la,unlike them,genius and rajin!

kafe B memang favourite spot kiteorang,selain tasek tepi DSL and dataran.. kat Kafe B tu laa kiteorang lunch,dinner,lepaking and gossiping! sweet memories. memang best gosip dengan diorang. informernya tak lain dan tak bukan Juju Man and Aizat la. no doubt. dengan muka kepoh masing2..hahaha :D sumpah rindu. even korang banyak kutuk aku,but seriously masa yang aku spent dengan korang were so precious.

it's been more than a year now,masing-masing dah bawa haluan masing ke menara gading. Tasha at UTHM,me at UiTM,Jieha Man Aizat at UPM and Juju at UKM. semua dah berubah,dah takde yang sama macam kat matriks. dunia universiti dah berjaya mengubah kami semua. even Man pun cakap aku dah banyak berubah,maybe sebab aku tak contact dorang,and bila jumpa pun kepala masing-masing dah lain. macam aku dengan Tasha,dia pun dah banyak berubah,so do I. perubahan-perubahan ni membuat kami tak tegar untuk terus bersama. i've decided to let her go. orang cakap aku lupa diri,tapi trust me,aku masih sama masih ingat siapa Siti Khalilah,just that aku dah tak rajin nak keep in touch dengan sesiapa pun. tapi,kalau kite leh gather of course aku nak jumpa korang suma. walaupun semua dah tak sama macam dulu but yet korang laa kawan-kawan aku yang terbaik

E N O U G H

again. again. again. ntah kali keberapa tah ni,dah tak terkira. I have to stop this. dua org Leo dalam hidup aku,seorang dah gave up on me,and utk holding on dgn seorang Leo lagi,aku tak kuat! kami tiada persamaan,AT ALL. Pisces bersifat air and Leo bersifat api. memang air boleh menyiram maraknya api,tapi jangan lupa,air juga mendidih disebabkan bahangnya api.

dalam hubungan ini,air yang kalah. air yang selalu disakiti.

No,ada bezanya antara hubungan seorang lelaki dan perempuan dengan seorang perempuan dan perempuan. banyak bezanya antara hubungan aku dan kau dengan aku dan dia. memang kalian berdua Leo,aku berjaya memadamkan kau dengan air tetapi dia berjaya mendidih aku dengan sifat api seorang Leo.

on my previous entry,aku cakap,I WON'T GIVE UP ON YOU,just that,you will know when you had enough. When respect has been lost,a relationship never recovers.

being single doesn't guarantee loneliness just like being in a relationship doesn't guarantee happiness

hoi Kelly!

Don’t eat, you’re gonna get fatter. Don’t talk, you’re making yourself look stupid. Don’t laugh, it’s annoying. Don’t try making a connection with him, you’re becoming more pathetic with each attempt. Don’t hold on, you’re going to let go sooner or later anyways. Don’t expect someone to make an effort with you, you’re just gonna let yourself down again. Don’t try, whats the point? Don’t cry, you’re weak. Don’t feel anything anymore, numbness is all you know now. Don’t hope for freedom, these chains are never going to be cut loose. Ever.

the akward moment when the HURT turns to ANGER :)

holla peeps,

this is just a quickie before House start.

it just,done blocking those peoples. Maybe,it's time I stop calling you mine GOODbye guys (!)

akhirnyaaaa~

dah edit2 cket this sawangssssnesss blog of mine..huh kali ni,Kelly buat lain daripada yang lain sikit,nta la ek,cam mereng pun ade,but,ahhh janji it's nice kat mata Kelly..wuuu heee;D banyak tul nak di update but you know what,i'm so damn helpless right now so later on i'll update everysinglething yeah..well,there's a lot of craps,best things happened on my second semester,but yes i'll update it later as i've became like this owl hikhik:p so goodbye for now dear my pretty readers yeah.. tatatititutu

my back is not a voicemail,SAY IT TO MY FACE! :)

I find it very hard to not freak out on people lately. I don’t know what my issue is, but when people give me shit, my first instinct is to lash out at them. I can’t help it..you can’t be easily hurt unless you know how to fight back. I was either an outward bitch to people or I was very nice, and far too often people mistook that for being fake and began to say mean things about me, changing the way I would treat them. It was unfortunate the way things happened for me. I could have done things differently, but to me that seems insincere and I didn’t want to change my natural reaction to a situation.

I was a mean person. I regret hurting people below the belt sometimes, but there’s nothing I can do about it now. The people I’m friends with know that I’m actually a very sweet and caring person, but I do not like letting people get away with hurting me.

I need to perfect the point I’m trying to make if I plan to keep friends.

I (hopefully) won’t be as volatile as I used to be, but I want you to know that I won’t take your shit and if you do decide to do it anyways, I will give you shit back.

What and how you speak reflects what you really are. If you backstab a person, you’re also backstabbing yourself to others. No one will think your reliable and trustworthy, they’ll only think that you’re a pathetic loser who wants attention..well,just sayingg ;)

guys,,what hurts the most isn’t shit talk from other people but shit talk from the people u relied on; make sure u pay attention to your friends instead of the haters around you… a true friend stays real behind your back ;)

Ayah♥

Kelly buat status beberapa hari yang lepas,yang kelly duduk tepi tasek s7,and try tenangkan hati..it works somehow..eventho org sebelah menyebelah tengok kelly semacam,thinking am i a crazy girl yang baru lepas putus cinta,then menanges sorg2 kat tepi tasek & then wanna suicide there :p

kelly mmg selalu datang tasek tu berjogging.. ye laa,berat kelly dah sampai tahap maximum dah ni. :') i really need to reduce it at least membolehkan baju2 kelly tak kelihatan seperti sarung nangka..plus,dlm masa yg sama,sambil kelly berjoging tu,kelly try release my tension thru memenatkan badan taw..my mind are so heavy with Ayah..almost of the time,i'm so worry about his condition..is he will be okay with the chemotheraphy n radiotheraphy thingy,selesa tak ayah kat ward tu,without my mum..and petang tu,dada kelly sgt2 sesak bila my mum cakap,ayah tak jadi buat chemotheraphy on that day,bcoz ada komplikasi jantung pulak..i'm just like,stop breathing n air mata terus menitis tak henti2..i'm, so damn worried! I wud like to solat sunat or at least baca al-Quran but unluckily i can't..so i decided to jogging..after about two rounds,Kelly tengok tasek tu and tanpa sedar kelly melangkah pergi ke arah tasek.. terus terduduk dan jari laju menekan nombor ayah..

dengar je suara ayah,yes,air mata terus laju mengalir lagi..he said,he's okay..and he didn't mentioned about his heart problem at all..Ayah asyik tell me to study rajin2,tebus balik kesilapan yang kelly pernah buat..and he said he know I can do my course well..lepas je cakap dgn ayah,menanges kelly sorg2 kat tepi tasek tu.tersedu-sedan.. regretting sbb pernah buat ayah kecewa with my attitude and all..i just wanna hug my dad waktu tu..

and i did promise to myself that i will treasure everysinglesecond with my dad,and make him proud of me..i will struggle to get my deanlist and i wanna make he's the happiest person in this world..Kelly akan tebus semua kesilapan yang pernah kelly buat kat matriks n sem 1..InsyaAllah :)

DON'T ever give up Kelly!!

i've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if i'd ever heal again

just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone
and i've learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets
so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

Love Drunk

When you are missing someone and you can’t get them out of your mind…its like you become a complete mess constantly thinking about them, calling them, emailing, facebooking, messaging trying to get a hold of them acting completely mad and ridiculous throwing all reason out the window.

satujanuariduaribuSEBELAS

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag

Drifting throught the wind

Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin

Like a house of cards

One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep

Six feet under scream

But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you

Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light

And let it shine

Just own the night

Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework

Come on show 'em what your worth

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework

Come on let your colors burst

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space

You're original, cannot be replaced

If you only knew what the future holds

After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed

So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow

And when it's time, you'll know

hello 2 O 1 1

:D

its nice to meet ya ;)

well,fer dis blessing new year,i wud like to hve ;

MORE friends,memories,adventures,love,happiness,laughter

A LITTLE BIT OF breakups,sadness && tears

but all i want is another good year :D