hoi Kelly!

Don’t eat, you’re gonna get fatter. Don’t talk, you’re making yourself look stupid. Don’t laugh, it’s annoying. Don’t try making a connection with him, you’re becoming more pathetic with each attempt. Don’t hold on, you’re going to let go sooner or later anyways. Don’t expect someone to make an effort with you, you’re just gonna let yourself down again. Don’t try, whats the point? Don’t cry, you’re weak. Don’t feel anything anymore, numbness is all you know now. Don’t hope for freedom, these chains are never going to be cut loose. Ever.

the akward moment when the HURT turns to ANGER :)

holla peeps,

this is just a quickie before House start.

it just,done blocking those peoples. Maybe,it's time I stop calling you mine GOODbye guys (!)

akhirnyaaaa~

dah edit2 cket this sawangssssnesss blog of mine..huh kali ni,Kelly buat lain daripada yang lain sikit,nta la ek,cam mereng pun ade,but,ahhh janji it's nice kat mata Kelly..wuuu heee;D banyak tul nak di update but you know what,i'm so damn helpless right now so later on i'll update everysinglething yeah..well,there's a lot of craps,best things happened on my second semester,but yes i'll update it later as i've became like this owl hikhik:p so goodbye for now dear my pretty readers yeah.. tatatititutu

my back is not a voicemail,SAY IT TO MY FACE! :)

I find it very hard to not freak out on people lately. I don’t know what my issue is, but when people give me shit, my first instinct is to lash out at them. I can’t help it..you can’t be easily hurt unless you know how to fight back. I was either an outward bitch to people or I was very nice, and far too often people mistook that for being fake and began to say mean things about me, changing the way I would treat them. It was unfortunate the way things happened for me. I could have done things differently, but to me that seems insincere and I didn’t want to change my natural reaction to a situation.

I was a mean person. I regret hurting people below the belt sometimes, but there’s nothing I can do about it now. The people I’m friends with know that I’m actually a very sweet and caring person, but I do not like letting people get away with hurting me.

I need to perfect the point I’m trying to make if I plan to keep friends.

I (hopefully) won’t be as volatile as I used to be, but I want you to know that I won’t take your shit and if you do decide to do it anyways, I will give you shit back.

What and how you speak reflects what you really are. If you backstab a person, you’re also backstabbing yourself to others. No one will think your reliable and trustworthy, they’ll only think that you’re a pathetic loser who wants attention..well,just sayingg ;)

guys,,what hurts the most isn’t shit talk from other people but shit talk from the people u relied on; make sure u pay attention to your friends instead of the haters around you… a true friend stays real behind your back ;)

Ayah♥

Kelly buat status beberapa hari yang lepas,yang kelly duduk tepi tasek s7,and try tenangkan hati..it works somehow..eventho org sebelah menyebelah tengok kelly semacam,thinking am i a crazy girl yang baru lepas putus cinta,then menanges sorg2 kat tepi tasek & then wanna suicide there :p

kelly mmg selalu datang tasek tu berjogging.. ye laa,berat kelly dah sampai tahap maximum dah ni. :') i really need to reduce it at least membolehkan baju2 kelly tak kelihatan seperti sarung nangka..plus,dlm masa yg sama,sambil kelly berjoging tu,kelly try release my tension thru memenatkan badan taw..my mind are so heavy with Ayah..almost of the time,i'm so worry about his condition..is he will be okay with the chemotheraphy n radiotheraphy thingy,selesa tak ayah kat ward tu,without my mum..and petang tu,dada kelly sgt2 sesak bila my mum cakap,ayah tak jadi buat chemotheraphy on that day,bcoz ada komplikasi jantung pulak..i'm just like,stop breathing n air mata terus menitis tak henti2..i'm, so damn worried! I wud like to solat sunat or at least baca al-Quran but unluckily i can't..so i decided to jogging..after about two rounds,Kelly tengok tasek tu and tanpa sedar kelly melangkah pergi ke arah tasek.. terus terduduk dan jari laju menekan nombor ayah..

dengar je suara ayah,yes,air mata terus laju mengalir lagi..he said,he's okay..and he didn't mentioned about his heart problem at all..Ayah asyik tell me to study rajin2,tebus balik kesilapan yang kelly pernah buat..and he said he know I can do my course well..lepas je cakap dgn ayah,menanges kelly sorg2 kat tepi tasek tu.tersedu-sedan.. regretting sbb pernah buat ayah kecewa with my attitude and all..i just wanna hug my dad waktu tu..

and i did promise to myself that i will treasure everysinglesecond with my dad,and make him proud of me..i will struggle to get my deanlist and i wanna make he's the happiest person in this world..Kelly akan tebus semua kesilapan yang pernah kelly buat kat matriks n sem 1..InsyaAllah :)